I'll be home...?

Load delivers to CA, but not very close to home. They have lots of business out of CA so they desire everyone to keep moving. If it moves from south to north so I can see family great. Thanksgiving in Las Vegas,NV. At a truck stop. With a trainee. Not to romantic when your anniversary is Friday!

Thin threads

Talked with Jesse today for a little while. We discussed for a few moments the tragic early death of Jonathan. I did not really know the young man; however, Jesse remembers him from the school bus when he was in kindergarten. If only we knew the lives that are touched by our actions.

Instead of spending Thanksgiving with some of the fine citizens of AZ (inmates) I could actually be home, late, but home, before delivering a load further south. I just hope it we weigh over 60000 lbs so the load counts for Jon on his mountains.

St Paul,MN

It has been several days since last post. It has been run like a mad man. We get a load for a short time only to have it taken away because they need a two person team to run the load. So we have been adding up the miles, but being driven crazy at the same time. Jon is a great driver, 12 years on police force certainly help. We have great conversations and sometimes even talk about trucking!

I would like to have thoughtful insight about Chris deciding to move out (forced out in his words), but other than a grieving heart I have none. The haunting prayer of the parent of a wayward child. Coulda woulda shoulda, did I do enough, Lord help direct... It is hard on both parents but so often it seems most on the wife. Thought process and emotions are different. I do not know how to offer words of encouragement or comfort when my own bag is empty.

I was supposed to be home around Thanksgiving. Instead I get to spend Thanksgiving in prison. I thought I had done that before, spending Christmas, Thanksgiving etc. with inmates, but I luck out and get the opportunity once again.

New Student

After aloneness again, at 1:45 PM I am supposed to meet Jonathan Huntley in Council Bluffs,IA. I decided to look up the name in Facebook. One is of a man who is already a truck driver. It will be interesting to see if one of the images is the right one.

Bought some Stonyfield French Vanilla Yogurt at Walmart in Lexington,NE. I have been to Londonderry,NH and brought a load of yogurt to TX. I had not sampled until today. I bought a quart, wish it came in gallons! I like a yogurt with body, not just a liquid sample. This had that plus fantastic texture and flavor. A little more money than some brands, but really really good!

I switched the subscription of a magazine from home delivery to on-line. It was nice to read it for a while tonight. It would really be nice if more would use the same format. I might subscribe to something else.

Tomorrow night off to Walcott,IA: Iowa 80. What a great place.

Push play

Will be traveling the midnight shift for the next two nights; my sleep pattern is all messed up. And then there is depression for lack of better terms. Getting the voices in my head to return to silence, or at least no louder than the sound of the cicada buzzing in my head. My iPod quit working so I will need to plug the computer into the aux port on the stereo in the truck. Several hours of positive input, noise to drown out the voices of depressing self talk.

Did it start when before Halloween while on hold with Stevens I was listening to a very bad rendition of Oh Christmas Tree? No it is my brain unable to find a solution to a problem and then sabotaging the whole experience. Have to spend time preparing iTunes.

New,Old artist

I discovered Michael Bublé (had to paste name to get the ' over the e) of course I am very late to the discovery! Enjoyed the music of Haven't met you yet; however, after I read wiki article, a greater appreciation for his heart was in the two songs Home and Lost. Home written while away from his love on tour in Europe. Lost written when they broke up after many years together. Both are enjoyable for different reasons.

Why do some of us find it so easy to be alone? We have the social grace of a bull in a china shop. Some of us have adult ADD so we work hard to understand how to play the game of life, but we flub up again and again. Dave Ramsey answers the question, "How you doing" with "Better than I deserve." I know I am doing better than I deserve. But it doesn't help answer the questions of life that linger in my mind. God placed me on the earth so in November 2009 the people in Cheshire,CT can have grapes and broccoli? Right!

Getting my eyes off of me and more on Him would be a great place to start answering the why am I here.

"Welcome" to Livermore

The welcome mat is rolled up for trucks in Livermore,CA. They have several businesses that utilize large trucks; however, they do not want you to park over night. Several acres along the freeway are open that would make a great truck stop to make a run to the bay area; however, this is California so NO!

Went to church, walked the mile to Discovery Church,Church of Christ was 3 miles. Minister could have delivered message to Central. Church has been in area since 1953; however, it is dying. People were very friendly, out going; however, they are shrinking. His message was pleading with the sheep, not beating the sheep.

Do I get to see Paula? Go from here to San Jose, then Merced and then...?